my heart was ripped apart, but still I stood by you...I bore this utmost pain...but u never realised... Everyday I mark my calendar - day one of healing my heart...but I always run out of time...
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Fun with unknowns!!!! :D
Jst received this msg on ma cell frm unknown numbr -> "Here is a surprise gift for Raf_e. I just come back frm bazar purchasing his gift". My reply -> "who is this btw? And what was the gift? And for who o_O?" His/Her reply -> "O, idiot this is for ur new baby I write his name as RAF.E. I cnt spell his name properly and surprise is surprise so y I told u this is for Raf.e" And nw when I'm writing this, my phone is ringing with his/her number!!!!!! But am I fool to pick it? :D I mean fun is fun :D wait let me reply nw ;) And what wuz my msg tht made him/her to call? -> "Whaaaat? My baby? O_O and I wasn't even invited on my marriage party :( where is my wife? :( " ....must have freaked out I guess :D And just received this msg -> "I'm sorry I think I by mistake sms on ur number I dnt knw who are u so sorry again" My reply -> "hahaha...don't worry I had a gud laugh ;)"
"The truth is, I'm not mad at you. I'm just hurt; and the fact that every time your name pops up on my phone or computer, my heart sinks a little bit deeper. You don't realize what you've made me go through; but i can guarantee you're not doing it again. thanks for teaching me just how much it hurts to be played with....learned a lot."
Erlang
By the way I'm learning Erlang programming language on my own. Why Erlang? Because I searched the net for a language suitable for telecommunication engineers and this is the best for us. Right now I'm reading "Programming Erlang, Software for a Concurrent World" by Joe Armstrong.
First Time
Everywhere I see, I find broken hearts and lonely souls Is it just me or is this the end of role Sometimes everything seems to be a lie Will I ever get a hold or the only choice left is to die Obviously I wrote it myself :/ ... Not good I know. So what should I do? Yups LearnYouSomeErlang
Truth
Just saw this somewhere on internet: " Truth is... We hide because we want to be found... We walk away to see who follows... We cry to see who wipes away the tears... And we let our hearts be broken...to see who comes...and fixes them... </3" ......
Where I belong
Just wrote some lengthy lines on loneliness but then pressed "del" and removed em all...Feeling apart from this world, like I don't belong here...
wordpress blog
Just found out that the "post by email" feature in my wordpress blog ( shahsaad.wordpress.com ) was not enabled :( huff.... Btw I liked wordpress layout more than livejournal and blogspot!
Lonely
feeling lonely...also disabling my facebook account again for unknown time...waiting for kiddo to come back soon...tan was also kind of rite...and now giving time to my blogs (which no one knows about)...anyways that's the charm of it I guess...writing openly on world wide web but still no one knows aware of it...like an open secret...
Don't consider my silence as your victory, you never know what price you are going to pay for it o_O
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When you gonna stop breaking my heart I don't wanna be another one Paying for the things I never done Can I get to your soul Can you get to my thoughts Can you promise we won't let go I hate to see you cry Your smile is a beautiful lie You won't see me cry, I'm hiding inside My heart is in pain but I'm smiling for you