HORRIBLE... There is a whole website dedicated to "Methods to Suicide" and assisting people how to commit suicide so that to make sure they really die and not end up in hospital.. Never knew there were so many methods e.g. Suicide through drinking water but WHAT THE HELL were they thinking designing that website!!!!! (Don't go searching for that site)
these days are hard.
Sometimes I'm sitting with my family, or sitting alone, and it just hits me out of nowhere, the realization of how much I miss your presence in my life, how much I miss our talks, your teasing, everything. But that follows with what happened, how you preferred a person you started talking few months ago over me, me whom you called your brother and you had known for few years now. I was the person who gave preference to you over everyone, because I called you my family. You once told me not to expect too much from you but at least you could have known your priorities. Or maybe you had always known, it was just me who didn't know them. Stupid me.