I used to believe something I was totally against...U asked me many times what's it? what's wrong? But I guess I just got good on hiding now...Is it just me who is stupid enough to believe on something which never seems to exist for anyone else? I tried too long to hide it but tonight, I can't. My heart is aching from this new kind of pain, new kind at least for me...
these days are hard.
Sometimes I'm sitting with my family, or sitting alone, and it just hits me out of nowhere, the realization of how much I miss your presence in my life, how much I miss our talks, your teasing, everything. But that follows with what happened, how you preferred a person you started talking few months ago over me, me whom you called your brother and you had known for few years now. I was the person who gave preference to you over everyone, because I called you my family. You once told me not to expect too much from you but at least you could have known your priorities. Or maybe you had always known, it was just me who didn't know them. Stupid me.