Ok, God..maybe I’m doing this all wrong. Let me try again. If there’s something you want me to learn, help me learn it. If there’s something I need to teach, help me teach it. If there’s somewhere I need to be, help me get there. If there’s something I need to do, help me do it. Most importantly, though, if there’s something I need to come to terms with, help me accept it. Please. Amen.
these days are hard.
Sometimes I'm sitting with my family, or sitting alone, and it just hits me out of nowhere, the realization of how much I miss your presence in my life, how much I miss our talks, your teasing, everything. But that follows with what happened, how you preferred a person you started talking few months ago over me, me whom you called your brother and you had known for few years now. I was the person who gave preference to you over everyone, because I called you my family. You once told me not to expect too much from you but at least you could have known your priorities. Or maybe you had always known, it was just me who didn't know them. Stupid me.