Sometimes in life, we are forced to do things that kills our insides; we don't have any other choice. Even if we do, we can't see it until it's too late. Sometimes things are not to be dealt with in the "natural way". You have to listen to your insides screaming at you which are louder than any thunder, and yet there is no way out except to do what you should't do.
Sometimes in life we just need smeone who will be there for us. Someone who will listen. Someone who will understand that we're not perfect.