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Dear You, I know you have no idea of what's going on in my head these days, and there is no way to let you know, but please, step back, there is no time left and you are ruining my efforts. Sincerely, Me.
"but thoughts they change and times they rearrange i don't know who you are anymore.."
A lot of things have changed between us Maybe that's why my life seems so tough Going each day from class to class And all I can do is watch u pass Everything has changed for the worst And inside it really hurts Now I have to rely on my friends To get me out of this dark hole that never ends
Don't waste your time explaining: people only hear what they want to hear.
Procrastination (noun). I'll put up a definition later.
Sometimes I wish I could appear offline in real life too..
Sometimes quiet people really do have a lot to say...they're just being careful about who they open up to.
Some people deserve to have eggs thrown at them. Brick shaped eggs.......made of brick.
Can I ask you a question?
There are two kinds of secrets: 1. Those we keep from others. 2. Those we hide from ourselves.
Have you ever been angry or sad, to the point where you just break down at home, in your room? Your parents don’t know because you keep the tears to yourself, and you cry silently. Your friends don’t know because you talk as if you’re fine and dandy behind the computer screen. Well you’re not fine and dandy, and you know it. No one really knows how you feel, and they have their own lives to deal with, so you don’t bother telling them, you bottle it up, and store it with the other problems or troubles.
See thats my problem. Nothing ever happens. So I sit around and do nothing about nothing ever happening. And when people tell me to just get up and do something, something inside me says no. So I sit down and wait for nothing to happen again -_-
It is sad because you would like to believe that everyone is unique and then they disappoint you every time by being exactly the same, asking for the same things, reciting the exact same lines as though they have been handed a script.
I love it when I buy a bag of air, and the company is nice enough to put chips in it :/
There's always that one person who's life you can watch fall apart through facebook statuses.
When you really matter to someone, that person will always make time for you. No excuses, no lies and no broken promises.
"Sometimes in life, you just need to step back, allow life to carry on while you take time for yourself."
It's like.. you suppress something for too long.. and then at once, it gets out of your control and absorbs you in it. And no matter how hard you try, you just can't find a way out of it. You try to tell yourself that you don't care but.. you just can't lie to yourself!
What you did to me has no definition.
I wouldn't have to manage my anger if people could learn to manage their stupidity. :/
So lets ignore each other, try to pretend the other person doesn't exist, but deep down, we both know it wasn't supposed to end like this.
You sometimes think you want to disappear, but all you really want is to be found.
unsaid feelings and unspoken thoughts..
Somehow I hope that you'll suddenly show up in front of me, and smile, a smile that's only for me <3
It's like I want you to know but I don't want to tell you.
There's nothing more upsetting than we not admitting whats bothering us. It's ruining us!
* That awkward moment when u start telling a story & u realize no one's listening, so u slowly fade out & pretend u never said anything.
I cannot formulate an expression using tangible words from any language that would even begin to express just how much you piss me off.
I'm not saying that I'm giving up.. I'm just trying not to think as much as I use to..
Be careful how you treat someone that cares for you, because they might just walk away and never come back..
Let me tell you this, if you meet a loner, no matter what they tell you, it’s not because they enjoy solitude. It’s because they have tried to blend into the world before, and people continue to disappoint them.
Sometimes, people really do feel like they don’t want to exist, like they want to curl up in a ball and hide from everyone else. They feel like life is caving in on them and they want to just go somewhere else and not feel anything at all. And I don’t think there’s anything wrong with that. And if you don’t know how it feels to feel this way, then you have no place to judge anyone who does.
What’s worse, new wounds which are so horribly painful or old wounds that should’ve healed years ago and never did? Maybe our old wounds teach us something. They remind us where we’ve been and what we’ve overcome. They teach us lessons about what to avoid in the future. That’s what we like to think. But that’s not the way it is, is it? Some things we just have to learn over and over and over again.
‎"There are many assholes and bitches in this world but there are just as many beautiful souls. It is a long tedious, heartbreaking process but there is someone for everyone in this world. Don’t let valentines get you down if you are single. Take yourself on a date because learning to love ourselves is the key to happiness."
I guessed I never realized how invisible I really am. They all think I am mad because I don’t talk to them. However the true reason why I don’t talk to them is because they always interrupt me and or don’t even hear me. So why do I even try anymore?
I hate it when peope who know NOTHING about me talk about me as if they do..
Don't lead me to the top of this mountain, if your intention is to make me fall..
I always have this fear that one day you are going to discover that I'm not as great as you once thought I was.
They can LOOK all they want, but they will never SEE me.
So many people fall in love with the wrong person, simply because the wrong person will often say all the right things.
Just a reminder. I belong to no one, I am owned by no one, I answer to no one. If I give you my time, it's a privilege, not an obligation.
We're all miracles. Know why? Because as humans, every day we go about our business, and all that time we know that the things we love, the people we love, at any time now can all be taken away. We live knowing that and we keep going anyway.
"There’s a reason I’ve always said I’d be happy alone. It wasn’t ‘cause I thought I’d be happy alone. It was because I thought if I loved someone and then it fell apart, I might not make it. It’s easier to be alone. Because what if you learn that you need love, and then you don’t have it? What if you like it? And lean on it? What if you shape your life around it, and then it falls apart? Can you even survive that kind of pain? Losing love is like organ damage. It’s like dying. The only difference is death ends. This? This can go on forever."
I miss those days when 'goodbye' was only meant until tomorrow..
It’s like those who love too much always get cut the deepest.
And I sit and listen to everyone’s love stories and I’m thinking to myself: where’s mine?
If you think of someone, day or night, asleep or awake, bad or good, and right now as you read this, they belong in your heart <3
I should respect people's feeling. Even if it's nothing for me, it could also be their everything.
Being a good person is nice, but you have to be mean sometimes to see different results.
Congratulations! You've managed to make me feel like a worthless piece of shit again. Would you like an award for that?
I don't wish to be everything to everyone, but I would like to be something to someone.
Fact: Sometimes the people who don't talk to you are the ones that really want to.
People say that walking away is the hardest thing to do, but it isn’t. Staying, even when you know it will break your heart is the toughest. Staying right where you are, waiting for your heart to be ripped apart is much harder than walking away and starting anew.
I don’t want to feel this way anymore. I don’t want this nothingness that has tangled around my heart.

Damn

Right now I wish you were here..
‎"Sometimes I just hear that inner voice saying to me 'God if you could only do that for yourself', or sometimes it gets more nasty and says things like shut up who are you to help anyone when you can't even practice what you preach".
Can I help someone else if I can't help myself?

helping others?

Sometimes I wish I could take my own advice. It's always easier to help others than it is to help ones self. "Okay listen. I'm going to tell u something u already know. But u know me, I'm gonna say it anyway ;) whatever happened, its in the past now. It doesn't need to be linked to ur present or ur future. U r not a new person. U r still the one who made those mistakes; we all do. Hell they weren't even mistakes at that time. So with being that same person, u have to move on. You won't be forgetting those times no matter how hard u try. There will always be moments in life when u will be getting flashbacks of the past. But the important thing is, it shouldn't affect u. No need to block those thoughts. Just let them flow in, but hold ur ground. Don't let yourself flow with em :)"
Things were said to me years ago that I still haven't forgotten. - Demi Lovato
He's broken because he believed.
I've changed so much lately. Every single day I wake up different. I feel like I'm fading with each step I take. All everyone else sees is smiles and laughter. They say I'm doing better, but I know I'm doing much worse..

feeling..

U know that feeling when there is no one around you and you just want to hug yourself?...... That's how I'm feeling now.

what's wrong :s

I don't know why lately I'm feeling so sleepy all the time. Can't read, can't use PC. If I do, it starts putting strain on my eyes. And that's forcing me to sleep at 9pm :(
To the words that never come out: someday it'll be your turn, promise.
‎"It's funny how when I'm loud, people tell me to be quiet. But when I'm quiet, people ask me what's wrong".
Sometimes in life, you just have to admit you are not worthy...

Nothing seems to matter..

sitting in a total empty library, listening to Jason Walker's 'Down'.. I wish I could sit here forever.. At times like these, nothing seems to matter, not even life. Lately I'm thinking of 'exiting' from this world so much. I wish I could. Its definitely not about the fear of death. Fear of death is long gone. How can you be fearful of dying when you have lost all your interest in life? Is it all about courage? Or is it about you being caring to your loved ones? You know it that doing this will cause pain to them. Apart from two people, everyone will be thinking 'why?'.. Clueless..
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