Life is bad. It's just a bunch of aches and pains. When ever there is some good/happiness, it's inevitable that it is going to end. I've resolved myself. I'm not going to expect anything but the worst because it's inevitable. Why be caught by suprise by something you know isn't going to last? Don't be a fool, even if it does get better always know it will come to an end.
these days are hard.
Sometimes I'm sitting with my family, or sitting alone, and it just hits me out of nowhere, the realization of how much I miss your presence in my life, how much I miss our talks, your teasing, everything. But that follows with what happened, how you preferred a person you started talking few months ago over me, me whom you called your brother and you had known for few years now. I was the person who gave preference to you over everyone, because I called you my family. You once told me not to expect too much from you but at least you could have known your priorities. Or maybe you had always known, it was just me who didn't know them. Stupid me.