It’s awful how one day, people can be so cute to you and the next day they almost don’t say hi. Do people get so tired of other peoples that fast? I don’t. Maybe I’m the problem. I hate to not know anything. Who can I trust? Who can’t I trust? I wanna know what’s wrong with me. I’ve lost so many friends the last months, and I don’t even know why. I want someone to tell me. But no one does. What am I doing wrong? I don’t want to be lonely anymore..
these days are hard.
Sometimes I'm sitting with my family, or sitting alone, and it just hits me out of nowhere, the realization of how much I miss your presence in my life, how much I miss our talks, your teasing, everything. But that follows with what happened, how you preferred a person you started talking few months ago over me, me whom you called your brother and you had known for few years now. I was the person who gave preference to you over everyone, because I called you my family. You once told me not to expect too much from you but at least you could have known your priorities. Or maybe you had always known, it was just me who didn't know them. Stupid me.