You told me that he 'informed' you that I'm taking interest in you. And then you asked me if what he's saying is true? I just said 'No'. You were silent after my answer. At that time, I thought it was enough. But later I realized that you had believed him. Or did you? I will never know. You had told me that "he is not like that", saying he won't start doubting our friendship, but in the end he did. Do you know who was most effected by his doubts? Me. I'm the one who can't share those things with you anymore, things I never shared with anyone else. You may say that I have other friends, but everyone is not the same. In my heart, everyone have occupied different parts. Everyone is special in their own way. The door from where you left is closed now. No one will be entering that part anymore.
these days are hard.
Sometimes I'm sitting with my family, or sitting alone, and it just hits me out of nowhere, the realization of how much I miss your presence in my life, how much I miss our talks, your teasing, everything. But that follows with what happened, how you preferred a person you started talking few months ago over me, me whom you called your brother and you had known for few years now. I was the person who gave preference to you over everyone, because I called you my family. You once told me not to expect too much from you but at least you could have known your priorities. Or maybe you had always known, it was just me who didn't know them. Stupid me.